Stress... getting very stress...

WA... after celebrating birthday... the past day had been a very dramatic...

Right after the birthday celebration, i got my 18 year old sickness...Food Poisoning... Got very sick and vomitted right after work and on monday morning... then ... the whole family down with food poisonng... everyone mourn like there is no tmr.... nad everyone was lying on the floor... having a busket on the left side of the bed... (to contain the vomit)... it was so horrible... like an serious disease strike on everyone...

On wednesday (6 days before examination) i go and sing Kbox with arthur and Sheeren( the one in the business course... not hte one in the class which have relationsip problem with the two A)... it was so much fun... If u go kbox... u will be singing some of the latest song available or sing ur famourite artiste songs for a long long time... instead of singing our favourite songs, we sing lot of oldies... like (wild flower u cannot pluck) in chinese and chen lei song... and we sing more than 2 time for each oldies... haha... singing in difference version.... normal and remix... haha... Fun... like putting some hip hop bit in the song... or using a guy voice for a lady song.. haha... and we take neoprint.... it was very fun and enjoyable...

todaay... i lost my bet because that liverpool cannot win the newly promted sheriffed untied... i cannot think la... Fuck la.... lost 10 dollar.... and i now only hope the totterham will win the bolton and overcome 2 goal difference.... sad... lose $15 in opening of EPL... Fuck la.... there go my 3 day allowance.... sad... thought can win some for my transport fee since i am not working and concentrate for examination...

DO so many shit thing and haven't start study proper... very stress.... and i very scared i cannot go the result i want....B+ for all subject, especially pharmaceutical chem, MBT,HBD, marketing and patient care and pharmaceutical maunfacturing technology...
very stress... cannot let my family problem affect my study.. Fa la... why they doing this divorsing thing now... during examination... hope my sister prelim result will not affect by it....

Thank u all for making my 18 birthday such a memorable one!

I am very grateful for all who remembermy birthday and celebrate with me. i haven't been so happy for a long time. After so many sad incident, at least i feel some sense of happiness.
I really want to thank my poly friends, my poly class, my secondary school friends and my basketball buddies... they really make it a reality. i want to thank them for their effort and their time. Seriously, without them, i will be walking along shopping mall in town window shopping alone or going to kbox to sing happy brithday to myself for 2-3 hours...
Thank! i will not forget this 18th birthday...

I do REALLY hate this family...

today... sunday morning 1.20am... i really have a bad day.... my parent quarrel again. this time... i really have nothing to say... i see until i numb... i am so numb wiht it... house gone, family gone... As a brother, i really scared for my brother and my sister future. They are only 16 and 14 respectivity... Now they are waching television as nothing had happen... but i know in their heart, they ar confused, bother by this whole incident...

This time no weapon is used... no violence... the feeling between them are cold and numb... there is only distrust between them... If ur parent quarrel, they will shout at each other, it is a good sigh, some time a tight slap across the face is a bit overboard, or knife used (this one need police to come)... For my case, they are behaving as they are strangers just met in this particular place and one of them 'taken" another people money.... After a marriage lasted 19 year, this is the end... from a loving couple to a total stranger where scars of distrust, betray, bad blood between them finally appearing in front of my eye... People.... if u come from broken home, u will know the situation. Now everyone have a happy family (no wonder divorse rate in Singapre is so high, one out of three family is broken family

As i am tying this blog now... my father is in front of me... breathing deeply... sighing... thinking... "how am i going to survive? am i going to let this situation control by this crazy woman in this house?". Although he tried to cover this mask by talking about the thaliand movie we are watching now... but i know... it is impossible... his face cannot express laugher and sadness although he was thinking of expressing both in his face, giving out errie laugher in his fierce face, saying" what can she do?", twice... the whole face frown now as he was watching the advertisment.... he try to control himself.... trying to act as a "good" guy in front of us. He now sitting behind me... looking at the television... murmuring "she cannot manage all three of us"

How i wish this month of August fly .... cause by the end of the month, this sad place will be sold and i looking forward to the new home.... i hate my eighteen birthday....

Phat night... picture released

The above picture are taken on the school Phat night, where all the youngster from the Food Science going there to enjoy what it like in a clubbing.... to be honest... the Dj suck and the decoration is not that bad( as it was free!)... but well done for the people who plan it... but change Dj... We enjoy it very much... cannot forget that night.... evreything was so wild... even have people stripping... in the beginning, the atmosphere wasn't that high but after some people i don't know...everything become high... i appreciate who did that and hope to meet them again in the near future... taking picture for them...

Enjoy Life

Happy birthday! so many people birthday... i scared...

for the past week, it have been the happy weekend as there are 5 friends having their birthday... As a friend, u will have to buy some gift to ur friends whose birthday is near.... if one, still can afford... but 5! man i nearly fainted... if everyone i buy... i will be broke for the next 3 week!.... so i decided to make them out.... Mostly cards to them.... After all, one year 365 days only have one birthday, except those who have birthday once in 4 year.. they are the sad case.... as they can be 60 years old while they are celebrating their 15 year old birthday.... they have a high possibility not able to celebrate their 21th birhtday... they will be 84 year old...
So hapy birthday to all my friends! Enjoy ur life at 18!

examination coming.. a lot of thnig cannot be done.

WA... today i very sad... i cannot go to Hong Jun Yang nanyang poly school concert because it crash with my lesson later... SAD... i was thinking of taking photo or making video from this concert... but not fated la.... All my friends taking photo at hsi concert and most of tehm( girls... ) are so crazy about him! I agree taht he is handsome , rich warm hearted and good voice...

Now ... my class is getting a heathly lifestyle with exercise every wednesday or thursday... last week, we play badminton and swim.... the week before, we play badminton in the school for 3 hours +... it is good as it help in making my body to be fit and better mind. At the smae time, i can get chance to get nearer to the girl i like... but i am not telling not u who is it

How my life going to be...

As i am going to 18 year old, i have been thinking of my doing when i am 17 year old... it just went to fast... all i can remember is clubbing 5-7 time when i am 17... What i have done in 17 year old? Have i done anything meaningful? Have i make my friends regret or lost friends? have i make new friends in this year? Have i make my GOd father disappointed( i have make him very disappointed in my year 17)?

Friends leaving and coming... have i been myself in polytechnic? i have been wearing a mask on my face in school for a long time... i appear to be cheerful... btu i am quite a lonely guy.... My camera is the only thing i really talk to, enjoy with... how i long to have a woman who i really talking to... who i can share my feelnig and my joy, frustration with her... that will support each other for life...

As 18 year old is like another milestone like age 16... where they will cahnge very drastically for me... Parent divorsing and worried about my future.... have i really choose a worng course in poly? all my friends taking A level this year... Man ...2 year just fly so fast! i really nothing to saw... Have i live my life to the fullness yet?

As the age 18 coming, more responisiblity is on me... my silbings acadamic result now at their best... Finanical worry as my father is an asshole( i know it is bad to curse your parent, but knowing your father womanize, getting involve in dirty ghost and doing thing that he is not capable and acting like a coward in the supreme court saying no money in the bank account but all deposit in other account we don't know... u think my father is a asshole?)

Now... i have to concetrate on my studies and work hard for my future... i hope and pray there will be one pharmaceutical company that will pay for my studies and work for them in the speciic field i am going to be specialise at... God will lead a way where they seem to be no way... may God lead me in his way... Amen

Hoping to contact with more new friends in poly and maintain all the friendship with all my old classmate and friends.

What wrong with the govenment?

Sometime the govenment disappear from our sight after the general election, but their presence can be feel in this place, in the worng way. Firstly... the prospect of curving of the causeeay bridge. don't know is malaysia fault or singapore fault... They wat the green light for teh constructing of the new bridge, we hesitated, but when we give. the malaysia side just jive themselves red light... Now Dr M blaming the incident to us! Wa nonsense! we allow, but u just cannot think properly. For the exchange of the bridge, we have set condition like allowing the free air space on the top of malaysia and selling sands to us at a cheaper rate, but now is malaysia who is hesitated now... Dr M.. don't blame the failure of the the contruction of the bridge to sngapore and keep out of ur country polilitic, following our LKY, not interfaring the government now, and the better part.... going to other countries to give talk.... Dr M? at home rotting and blaming everything to singparoe as if we own them a lot of money....

not talk aobut ohter countries.... now back to homeland... Government ask the mediacork to close down Mr brown column. For ur information, Mr brown is the infamous podcasting king in singapore... make famous with the bak cho mee podcast during the election time. WAAAA... the column can say to be his rice bowl... Having his rice bowl broken is the worse thing even in this economy, where u need to have mulipte rice bowl in order to sustein ur life in singapore.... I really feel bad for Mr brown. he is a great man, provding joy and entertain us using his podcast .... how come his column off the newpaper? just bcause of one column only? during the early part of the year, the govenment like him... now govenment hate him. Waht a irony! He is a "jack neo" just that jack neo show singapore through movies while Mr brown show singapore in podcast. Support Mr brown always!

sorry... very Sian.. don't feel like studying... just look at my profile recently... found something

i was updating my profile for my friendster since i have been a long time since i update my profile and my photos... so i want to update... jsut want i going to update my profile.... i look at my old profile.. then i tell myself..." Did i type them out?, wHa!! i did not know i am type long profile for myself..."

MY OLd friendster profile...

Some time i figure did i do make a wrong choice in my education path... never mind... like chinese saying.... when u reach the end of the bridge, it will eventually be straight... like life... everyone will have different life, different encounters, different life stories to tell to our grandchildren... but we will all be old and died evenutally... so live life to your maximum.... don't go to jail... a very tough lesson, know ur mistake early better than late....

about myself, just another nerd u see in television... wear spec, wear thick thick glasses... life to me is work and eat.... but recently have photograph as my hobbies...

i have multiple characteristic.... i have a few name...
in secondary 1 class:germ from form teacher poh man see
in secondary 2 class:kampong from kewei ( still using)
in secondary 3-4 class:take shit king( i don't know how to pronoune) for my basket skill and the way i eat
in ST John:euth as i am very euthesrtic in my work(forgive me for my spelling)
in church:malcolm (sound nice lah and widely used)
in wild wild wet: malcom... that malay spell my name wrongly...
in cjc 1st three month;marist... as i am the only marist in the class

to ladies, i am not a sweet talker, so sorry if i am too straightforward with my language and please people, if i don't any wrong, just tell me to my face, i just cannot catch hint la... just be straightforward to me... Maybe studying in boy school for 10 year make me act unusually in front of girl... so don't get wrong of me... i try to overcome it

now... i just wish this particular person will read it this blog. ____, i know i am not handsome or rich, but please give me a chance to learn how to care about u, look after u and most important, let me love u. i am not good in words, therefore i using this profile to tell u my feeling. it had been a long time since we talk so freely.i Just want everything to be back like usual.

The above essy wasmy old profile... i did not know how come it is so long....
but at least i want to keep this profile... as it make me remember who am i after i been lost in this world....this materialistic world...

i really want to rewrite my blog... i have lost myself in the past 1 year... at least this is one of the things i can do before my 18 birthday.... i still want to cherish my younger day where there is so much freedom as a child.. now... huge responsibles comnig , my blur future, walking out of this failure marriage of my parent....

As least i need to know all the foolsih things i did in the past as they are the things that worth laugh about..like writing a year( or 8 months) diary for a girl as her birthday gift but did not give to her because she tell me she don't like me before her birhtday... or stalking a girl in secondary school day for 3 months straight.... At least this profile is something i can laugh about...

MAn... it been a long time since i blog...

WA.... it have been a long time since i went blogging in this webiste... Damn long.... Now in poly, i have friends leaving and coming so often that i feels lost in. Now have to study for my common test 3.... sad... very tired physical and emotionally
and now... waiting for my 18 year old... the age 18 since to be too old and big for me....so much pressure and responsible in me.. that is one thing i don't to carry now... i still want my freedom....
now famly doing the divorsing and my father is acitng like an asshole that i haven't seen before... BIg asshole.... pay soo much money outside wiht other woman but not in the family... FAmily debt that was going to pay finish become more debt because that asshole withdraw soo money $$ anad saying making other "business" or should i replace the word with woman? I also very scared that i will end up like him as he was ex-marist.... i promise myself that i will love my girlfriends( and future wife) more and make sure that this tradgey in my family will not happen.... a failure in marriage in miscommunication,unable to trust each other and the presence of muliple 3rd parties.... This is one thing that i cannot accept... having 3rd parties...

Hope God in heaven help me in this year 2006...

hey..this is a pciture of the three marist!... my cousin, my brother and me... are marist... man!cool isn't it? marist take pcture together! wa! rare... this is taken on my auntie housewarming and taken in the living room.... don't u realise all marist are gentleman? they all wear spect!
Marist!

CJC first class...

this is 1T36.... one damn cool class.... with orientation leader such as eddie and allabelle(who not in the pic) this is a damn good orientation class.... and this is a pic taken at orchard.... at 11pm... near the taka shopping centre...this is just half the class... sorry, the other went off and it was tooo late... and it is taken just after the friday finale night of the whole orientation week... the guy ...handsome and the girl... damn chio.... so this is the class i always and i REPEATED.. i always want to be... it is also my first mixed class after the 10 torturing year in the full boy maris stella high... at least... i fet the freedom in the new JC... but a bit too far from my house... never mind... looking forward my brand new JC life in CJC in the first three month
1T36 rulz....

how.... so the first party of the year.. the wild wild wet party...!it is on the jan the 4... and the theme of the party... the 70s !sooo.. everyone should be in their 70 clothing... but.. it look like we are not!... we have a buffet dinner and yum yum.. the food is damn DElicious.. eat unitl damn full... have excitnig performance form each department ... especially our department breakdance... really break the stage down!!! cool.... and there is a lucky draw... with 100 gift of 200 people so.. everyone should have right?
nooo... our table don't have any one! and the other table.. everyone is a winner!coo... damn unluckly... but never mind... wait for next year party!
wild wild fun...

carolling on eve of christmas

hey... today is christmas day! merry Christmas... i know people have different way to countdown christmas.. some famous one is go to Orchard and countdown christmas at the big christmas tree.. some more traditional one is to go to church and countdown together as a church... our church went to sing carol at christmas eve... going to homes and house to deliver the good news to these place... this picture is one of the many pictures taken in the christmas eve... everyone were singing at the home for the disable people in bishan... everyone sing their lung out.. while i slack as i was appointed the photographer of the night.. as my attire is very "outstanding"... i wish everyone a happy joyous christmas day! HOHOHO...
hear the angel sing!

hey... this is a picture of my church mate... cool?. the little cute adorable boy wearing white shirt is gi...arrr... i forget how to spell his name... but never mind... this is not the most important thing i want to tell u... u all see this boy... isn't he cute... adorable ... and want to squeeze his cheek? this is one of the most adorable kid in our church! even auntie and ah soh find his adorable... while the guy wearing a red shirt and had a big red nose is call daniel.... he is shorter than me... but he is smart... and the most important he can play guitar very... very welll! he can play chinese pop , spanish romance and even english pop... he is really very good at guitar... daniel is in his tertiary education while the little cute boy who i forget how to spell his name is in secondary school.... (p.s : don't they look like brothers?)
happy friend

finally i do OT!!!

ya...i have finally work for 12 hours... my first OT... ya! form 9am to 9pm... longest working hours i had done... but i like it because i have fun in working! christmas is coming... everyone celebrating it in different way! in wild wild wet, the fat guy in the picture... act as a santa claus!... have u seen a fat dark santa claus? In wild wild wet, u can see this dark black santa claus ! haha... wat a joke... a dark malay santa claus... who act as santa claus is not important.. as long he or she can bring out the fun in every children! hohoho! Merry christmas!!


looking at wat?

have u look at the weather recently?

have anyone have a chance to look at the weather recently? normally people say "what yo see about the weather?' to me, the weather is fascinating!if u can spare a few minute watching the weather, u will realised the weather is unpredictable. sometime i shine, after a while it is total darkness. this picture below is a picture of the weather which is unpredictable. doesn'et this picture look the glory of God spear through the darkness of Satan? everyone, enjoy!

this is not a very good weather

wa.... indian call are irriating!

the latest news from malcolm lin shijun... the threat of indian calling me!!! this is how it started.... on clinton birthday, i started to receive anomyous call from an indian guy... u know .. this guy is power!!! call for me everyday...! as if i own his alot alot of money! this guy call me soo many thimes that i scared of him... on saturday... i receive a total of 124 call!!!wa!! and that was just saturday! ever with the help of clinton and daniel, that indian still call day and night like siao!. i need help!!! telong telong pray that indian don't call me today!

clinton birthday bash!

there u see. dec8... clinton birthday... this 1.81 handsome smart guy finally turn 16... hahaha.. now then can see nc 16 movie without being scared being caught! but he have watched before m18 movies before ...so never mind la... friend from church and school come together for this birthday! the party was in a mess but it is great ...everyone have a great fun! the picture is the first hand picture of how he blow his birthday cake... clinton... Happy birthday! (i still cannot believe he only 16)
the big black wolf blowing off the candle!