sorry... very Sian.. don't feel like studying... just look at my profile recently... found something

i was updating my profile for my friendster since i have been a long time since i update my profile and my photos... so i want to update... jsut want i going to update my profile.... i look at my old profile.. then i tell myself..." Did i type them out?, wHa!! i did not know i am type long profile for myself..."

MY OLd friendster profile...

Some time i figure did i do make a wrong choice in my education path... never mind... like chinese saying.... when u reach the end of the bridge, it will eventually be straight... like life... everyone will have different life, different encounters, different life stories to tell to our grandchildren... but we will all be old and died evenutally... so live life to your maximum.... don't go to jail... a very tough lesson, know ur mistake early better than late....

about myself, just another nerd u see in television... wear spec, wear thick thick glasses... life to me is work and eat.... but recently have photograph as my hobbies...

i have multiple characteristic.... i have a few name...
in secondary 1 class:germ from form teacher poh man see
in secondary 2 class:kampong from kewei ( still using)
in secondary 3-4 class:take shit king( i don't know how to pronoune) for my basket skill and the way i eat
in ST John:euth as i am very euthesrtic in my work(forgive me for my spelling)
in church:malcolm (sound nice lah and widely used)
in wild wild wet: malcom... that malay spell my name wrongly...
in cjc 1st three month;marist... as i am the only marist in the class

to ladies, i am not a sweet talker, so sorry if i am too straightforward with my language and please people, if i don't any wrong, just tell me to my face, i just cannot catch hint la... just be straightforward to me... Maybe studying in boy school for 10 year make me act unusually in front of girl... so don't get wrong of me... i try to overcome it

now... i just wish this particular person will read it this blog. ____, i know i am not handsome or rich, but please give me a chance to learn how to care about u, look after u and most important, let me love u. i am not good in words, therefore i using this profile to tell u my feeling. it had been a long time since we talk so freely.i Just want everything to be back like usual.

The above essy wasmy old profile... i did not know how come it is so long....
but at least i want to keep this profile... as it make me remember who am i after i been lost in this world....this materialistic world...

i really want to rewrite my blog... i have lost myself in the past 1 year... at least this is one of the things i can do before my 18 birthday.... i still want to cherish my younger day where there is so much freedom as a child.. now... huge responsibles comnig , my blur future, walking out of this failure marriage of my parent....

As least i need to know all the foolsih things i did in the past as they are the things that worth laugh about..like writing a year( or 8 months) diary for a girl as her birthday gift but did not give to her because she tell me she don't like me before her birhtday... or stalking a girl in secondary school day for 3 months straight.... At least this profile is something i can laugh about...

MAn... it been a long time since i blog...

WA.... it have been a long time since i went blogging in this webiste... Damn long.... Now in poly, i have friends leaving and coming so often that i feels lost in. Now have to study for my common test 3.... sad... very tired physical and emotionally
and now... waiting for my 18 year old... the age 18 since to be too old and big for me....so much pressure and responsible in me.. that is one thing i don't to carry now... i still want my freedom....
now famly doing the divorsing and my father is acitng like an asshole that i haven't seen before... BIg asshole.... pay soo much money outside wiht other woman but not in the family... FAmily debt that was going to pay finish become more debt because that asshole withdraw soo money $$ anad saying making other "business" or should i replace the word with woman? I also very scared that i will end up like him as he was ex-marist.... i promise myself that i will love my girlfriends( and future wife) more and make sure that this tradgey in my family will not happen.... a failure in marriage in miscommunication,unable to trust each other and the presence of muliple 3rd parties.... This is one thing that i cannot accept... having 3rd parties...

Hope God in heaven help me in this year 2006...