Friendship on the edge

i have no idea this thing will come to me and thought it was gone... it reappeared.

IN year 1, i was good friends with angie, eileen and cara for the first semeter butin second semeter, i seem to be separated from them, i don't know y...

In year 2, i tell myself not to commit the same mistake and make friends with huang rhoo, ivy and ying ying, by this time, the same problem reappeared, i just don't get it... Am i that irriting and unbearable? They say i quit research to savage our friendship... i think i kena shipwreak.

i have been trying to talk lesser to prevent them thinking i am talkative or those people who will leak out secret. i try to talk to them, but they have been talking ladies stuff and there is no way i can interfere with them or start a topic when i have a chance to say. The BEST part, some girls in my class merge and make a bigger click, it worsen my problem. Whenever i try to say and try to response to their convensation, WS and WT(i am not going to say the name and make the matter worse) will just give me a stare as if i talk sometime wrong or what or response to my sentence with her FAMOUS Sentence( AM i TALKING TO U meH?).

IT have been a very frustrating 3 weeks since the start of school. ALmost no decent talking. Saying i left the research, it will be better for all of us. K.. i left. IT is not GETTING any better for me. It becoming worse! KNNBCCB! All the friendships i made, went to dust. May be i oversenstitve, May be i overreacted, Maybe i did not know the REal situation is, But i know one thing... I am in THIS situation.

I am VERY proud of myself to cycle from Home(JAlan kayu) to Chua Chu kang!, the distance go and back, 55km!, take 4 hours to travel, very Big sense of ACcomplishment! but physical tiring and i scared tomorrow everywhere cramp... especially my leg...k..

i going to sleep and go church tmr... HOPE that problem will be solved