As i am going to 18 year old, i have been thinking of my doing when i am 17 year old... it just went to fast... all i can remember is clubbing 5-7 time when i am 17... What i have done in 17 year old? Have i done anything meaningful? Have i make my friends regret or lost friends? have i make new friends in this year? Have i make my GOd father disappointed( i have make him very disappointed in my year 17)?
Friends leaving and coming... have i been myself in polytechnic? i have been wearing a mask on my face in school for a long time... i appear to be cheerful... btu i am quite a lonely guy.... My camera is the only thing i really talk to, enjoy with... how i long to have a woman who i really talking to... who i can share my feelnig and my joy, frustration with her... that will support each other for life...
As 18 year old is like another milestone like age 16... where they will cahnge very drastically for me... Parent divorsing and worried about my future.... have i really choose a worng course in poly? all my friends taking A level this year... Man ...2 year just fly so fast! i really nothing to saw... Have i live my life to the fullness yet?
As the age 18 coming, more responisiblity is on me... my silbings acadamic result now at their best... Finanical worry as my father is an asshole( i know it is bad to curse your parent, but knowing your father womanize, getting involve in dirty ghost and doing thing that he is not capable and acting like a coward in the supreme court saying no money in the bank account but all deposit in other account we don't know... u think my father is a asshole?)
Now... i have to concetrate on my studies and work hard for my future... i hope and pray there will be one pharmaceutical company that will pay for my studies and work for them in the speciic field i am going to be specialise at... God will lead a way where they seem to be no way... may God lead me in his way... Amen
Hoping to contact with more new friends in poly and maintain all the friendship with all my old classmate and friends.
